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Friday, November 21, 2014

Turning 18. posted at 3:33 AM

Hihi, to whoever's reading this blog!

Time for a monthly post (:

I finally turned 18 this week! Had a Chem paper that day though, life sucks ):

But still, I'm glad I turned 18.

I've never really liked celebrating my birthday since no one really did in primary school; never got invited to any parties and the last time I threw one in P3, oh god, don't even talk about it. I cried HAHA. Stupid me. Over what, I shan't say but let's just say the me last time is gone for good and I'm glad I'm the way I am now.

Birthdays now, are exciting and a reminder of how I've matured over the years. I can't say I'm the most mature, I don't think I am (flashback to many many embarrassing moments in life), but I can proudly say that I have become the person I've wanted to be. Of course, not appearance wise or intelligence wise, but simply put, I'm glad I've become someone with friends.

Personally, I don't treat birthday messages as something that people are obliged to send, or my birthday something that people ought to engrave in their memories, but when I do receive them, I'm glad they did. This year especially, even with As, even the most unexpected of people did. Even if some people had forgotten, I know it wasn't on purpose, and I wouldn't doubt the place I hold in their lives. If anything, I should place faith in my friends that they like me for who I am and things like remembering one's birthday is trivial.

People always ask me, why do you place friends so high up there, along with your family? Because they have changed me more than my family has. For the better, that's why. I could not live a life without my friends because I've had a taste of life without them. I didn't like it, and I'm never going back to that.

Turning 18 to me, signifies the start of this journey of dream chasing. I'm going to take this few months, sit down and seriously think of what I want to do. I've decided I want to make a positive impact in people's lives, I want to make people laugh and smile. That will be my benchmark whilst searching for an ideal career. I mean every career has the capability to do that, but I want to search for a career that will enable me to make people smile the way I want them to. I know this sounds cliche and totally impractical for the 21st century. But that's who I am, I'm a dreamer. It's the possibility of these dreams coming true that keep me going. Who knows which dream will come true? Maybe one day I'll be a Michelin chef? Maybe one day I'll be a YouTube star? Maybe one day I'll open my own bar? Maybe one day I'll become a criminal lawyer? Maybe one day I'll work for the FBI? Or... maybe I'll be able to work alongside the best directors? *___* Easy does it, and I'm going to slowly look into myself to see which dream is the most attainable. There's no rush. I do hope I have 80 more years in front of me. So, there's no rush. Maybe I'll start working on one of them straight after As. Ahh, I can already imagine days with a notebook, sitting at a bench beside the window at McCafe on a rainy day with a cup of hot coffee in front of me, daydreaming about scene after scene. Can't wait!!

After all, we only do have one life, don't we?

FIGHT-O!

Wan Xin ^_^