Have gun, Will travel

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Things I need to get off my chest posted at 8:53 AM

It's so funny how when the schools host all sorts of university forums and talks, you're supposed to be more certain of what you want to do in the future and stuff, but the more of such stuff I attend, the more confused and unsure I feel.

It's not the kind of 'I-don't-know-what-I'm-doing-with-my-life' feeling but more of a 'I-don't-know-what-I-want-with-my-life' feeling. There's a difference, in case you can't see it. The difference is, I'm not doing anything with my life at all and hence the former doesn't apply. I'm just so messed up and disorganized, I seriously have no proper direction in life. I just hobo my life away, typing away on this electronic gadget, ranting about my life.

I have no direction, and it annoys me (probably explains why I'm kinda like 1D now, because at least it's One Direction... get the pun? Forget it.)

I used to be all set on being a psychologist, or a forensic scientist, or a criminal lawyer or anything that isn't 'mainstream' (doctor, lawyer, etc.), but everytime I start on about this topic, my mum puts me down without even considering. There is nothing I want to do that's on her accepted list. I'm so lost. I no longer know what I want with my life any longer. I thought of mass communications, and once again I was put down. I understand that the prospects of whatever job I want to do isn't good, but hey, that's what I want to do.

Now, I'm not sure if I should just be a conformist or be an idealist.

Do what others want me to do, or do what I want to do.

Be regretful; or be happy.