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Friday, May 10, 2013

What keeps me going posted at 9:48 AM

What keeps me going?

This week, nothing has been going on particularly well for me.

And I just ended the week on probably the worst note ever. After an amazing night watching Huang Cheng, I went home with utterly PMS-y parents and got scolded for something I felt like I didn’t do wrong. I just don’t understand why they expect me to be perfect in everything. They want me to do well in studies, be a freaking housewife and do shit. If I do well, it’ll never be enough, they want more. And they think that my school life isn’t tough for me to handle already.

School life hasn’t been the best either. I’m currently facing problems with CCA, friends and shit. I got myself involved in shit for being honest about things and well, my teacher in charge’s probably another person who expects everyone to be perfect in everything they do. And recently, relationships with a few friends and seniors have not been going on exactly well either. I have always prided myself in being able to steer clear of unnecessary relationship problems, but ever since I’ve stepped into JC and have gotten myself involved with more people, things will probably never stay the same. I expanded my social circle, that’s for sure, but along with that comes the problem of misunderstandings arising everywhere, and so shit, misunderstandings everywhere.

I wonder how I manage to smile and live through everyday though. So today, on my way back home, amidst all the scolding and nagging, I thought about what keeps me going on in life.

Manga and Anime

Manga and Anime freaking keeps me going on in life, as stupid as it might sound, it is very true. Manga and anime keep me sane after every week and they make me think so much about life and keep me optimistic. It’s like whatever you don’t see in real life (real friendships, understanding parents etc.), you see in manga and anime. And I guess, that’s the reason why I indulge in anime and manga, to escape from reality. Call me a coward, I don’t care.

Friends who care

I am so glad to say that I have a large group of friends who care and I can easily turn to anyone if I happen to face any problems. Like just anyone and talking to them would instantly make me feel better. There are those friends who understand how you feel and try to comfort you by reassuring you that everything’s going to be fine, and there are those friends who just keep quiet and let you rant at them, only to provide vague advice at the end of it all. Then, there are those friends who would rather be honest with you than say some sugar coated words to cheer you up. I value all of these friends and I’d honestly be lost without all of them. Thank you guys so much for being there when I need you guys. None of you have ever declined to hear me out when I’m down and I’m really really grateful for you guys.

Well, I guess the above two are the only things that keep me going on with life.

Sigh, life will you get better?