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Saturday, March 16, 2013

What's Hope? posted at 5:23 AM

What is Hope?

It's been a long time since I've blogged. Yes, I was really busy even though it was the last week of Term 1. Meetings for Interact every morning, homework piling up in my file, CommServ on Friday drained 90% of the last bit of energy I have had in me and today, I'm officially 'dead' after walking the walkathon.

After Apollo Faculty meeting that day, I asked myself again and again. Do I really want to join Fac Comm? Do I really really want to join Fac Comm? I hoped the answer would change in the midst of convincing myself to stop dreaming, but yet, it's not working.

I know it's near impossible. We have 8 Interim CT reps, and only 3 get to move on to the interviews. Yet, I'm not a born leader. Honestly, I was never born to be anything.

But if there's one thing I know I've got for sure, it's the energy I have in me. It's that almost limitless amount of energy that boils within me even if it's 5AM in the morning. And I know, that it'll somehow be useful.

Why I want Fac Comm... it's a complicated thing honestly. I really love Apollo, I really do. Apollo's the best thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life and I cannot express how proud I am to be in Apollo.
It's not just that though. I want to feel... useful.

I mean, imagine. If there's that one and only thing you're good at, and you finally found somewhere and something to place all of that goodness in... wouldn't you feel the same as me?

I really want Fac Comm.

I've never wanted something so much in my entire life.