Have gun, Will travel

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Like any other day posted at 9:38 AM

Recently, nothing has been going right.

Like any other day, I've been feeling kind of emotional. Well, it could have been the weather, perhaps, it's simply just me.

I feel so useless. Like I have not been able to do anything right. My studies are (as usual) terrible, my social life's been rather screwed up. Nope, zero development in the romantic aspect of life (not like I expected any) and well, life's been screwed up, dull, mundane.

I really admire people who get born with better looks, better brains, better assets, because they are not me. I admire anyone who is not me, really. Because being me, sucks to be very honest. I used to blame my parents for giving birth to me in the first place, but after reconsidering what I've said, instead of feeling sorry for myself, the people who I should truly feel sorry for are my parents. Having to put up with such a temperamental, irresponsible, fat, and dumb daughter... like me

I cannot stand it when people say that I'm not who I think I am, because they don't understand. What they see is different from what's underneath. Maybe, just maybe, I may appear as some crazy and happy-go-lucky person who doesn't have a care in the world, who shrugs things off her shoulders as if they were nothing, or as everyone else says: high, I am truly not who people think I am.

I suffer from an inferiority complex.

Everything around me reminds me of something I cannot do. Everyone around me reminds me of some quality I lack.

Life sucks, can I not live on this planet any longer.