Have gun, Will travel

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Relationships posted at 7:55 AM

Smile!

Today, 13S73 had our first ever class outing! :D Hoped everyone had fun (: Bonded more with the guys (I think) and with THE BROS (inserts brofist.jpg). My class is pretty nice~ As in you can talk to everyone, ok, almost everyone. But I'm still having a little trouble with the guys and the more 'popular' people bah. But I'll try my best! I promise!~

I was thinking about how fast I clicked together with people from my class, so much faster than I did in Sec 3. I think I changed, for real. But somehow, I don't want my distance with Watermelons and Chickens to increase. It increasing gradually, the gap, I can sense it.

That night, it all came pouring out. I thought I was the only one who felt that way. Like how Watermelons was like a solar system where Turtle was the sun and Minion's the gravity pulling all us planets together. I've noticed long ago, there's some sort of caste system in this little (rather huge) clique of ours(?)

Turtle will forever be ranked first. And people will forever listen to her. Because she's smart, charismatic and etc. Things that I'm not. (Btw, if you happen to read this, please don't take this to heart kay.) But it's true anyway. Things just revolve around her, I don't know if anyone realised but if they have not, I should tell them. Yes, the rest of us, we're not feeling attached to the group. It's so obvious. She gets the best, and yes, I admit I'm jealous, but at the same time, I'm not.

Minion will forever be loved <3 Without her, Watermelons won't go on for long, I foresee. Sorry to say, but yes, we used to think we would be friends forever? But let's face it, without Celeste, things won't last long.
Okay, maybe things will. But you'll start to slowly see who's less attached to the group. People who only like someone a lot in the group and the rest are just calefare to her.

And us. Yes, we feel horribly left out sometimes. We're not even kidding. We're sick and tired of having to revolve around a sun. We want to share the love. Can you look into our eyes and say, "I can't live without you like I can't live without the Sun?" No. I bet my entire bank account you cannot. At least you can't, from the bottom of your heart. You think during PE lessons, I like to be separated from you guys? Do you realise? Yes, this specifically goes towards you my dear friend. I know, as friends, sacrifices have to be made, but when these sacrifices go unseen, do you know how bad it feels? At first it's okay, because as long you guys get to be happy, but after a while, it gets tiring. Tiring when no one shouts for you to stay. And then you realise, perhaps, you're not that important after all. But if it's her, it's a whole different story. No one can live without her. "Stay!" And whining ensues. Because she is needed. Like the Sun. And us, just ornamental planets.

And this is the reason why, I don't like Watermelons as a whole when compared to Chickens. Because we can be ranked in others hearts. And the rankings are so terribly distinct. But, I still love you guys still the ends of the world. Probably not as much for a few certain people.

For Chickens, you guys are just perfect. The best friends I can ever ask for. I can't even decide okay. I don't even need to think to know you guys are the group if I can, would want to stay with forever.

I'm sorry I ranted. But it's time someone did. And if this post causes misunderstandings, then perhaps, we really weren't meant to be friends.

But all in all, all my friends, I love you guys. Hope you understand. Okay?